Wanting

I sometimes wish I was like other people, full of energy, always on top of things, checkbook balanced and with a great lookout on life. I seem to always be wanting to have the balance in my life, and when I think i get there then something always happens. I guess i am on the down right now. I do have something or should i say someone in my life that helps me stay on top. I just get sometimes not likeing where i am at. I wish i was through the things i am dealing with the things going through my life. I know I will get through it all, just some days seem tougher than others. I know others go through the same.
I am getting there. I am just having a down day. Maybe I am tired or just I am thinking too much about money and trying to stay on my budget, which is hard when you have so much going out. I know I am not the only one to have that problem....
I just miss my girlfriend. She lives far away and there are alot of times I wish i could just walk over to her place and get a hug and a kiss......
Being me is ok, I don;t know what it would be like someone else, so I accept me, just having one of those days i guess.
I am lucky and blessed to have what I do. So on a possitive note I can smile. A few more days and I get to see my love. I can't wait to see her again.

I feel like i am babbling but what is this blog for. I need to write more often.....


A challenging day