The Darker Side to Life

I know this is not a subject to talk about but haven't we all been there, where is that, the Dark side of our characters. That hidden self that you don't let people see, the thoughts, emotions, and actions you try to keep hidden from the public.
OK, taboo to talk about that side of ourselves maybe, but why not go there. Here we go......
What do you do with those thoughts you get when you just want to let go and let it all out regardless of the consequences...Do you just go for it and the hell with everyone else or do you hold in check and wait till the feelings go away? Wouldn't it be fun to be that other person for once and just let your feelings and desires take full control and become just for a night that person? Is that person really suppose to come out and play? Is that part of who we are and we just haven't figured out how to merge the two to a good balance that we can live with?
No I am not one who has a split personality or anything like that so don't jump to conclusions, if you do then that is your problem right.
What I am saying is there is a part to our lives that we hold in check with the best of our wills to keep there. It slips out when we are tired or been drinking just a little too much and our guard comes down and that part shows up and either we are amazed or embarrassed by what transpires. What if that part we hold in check is somehow suppose to be part of who we are but we are too uncomfortable or afraid to let it be part of our day to day lives?
Somehow it is part of us because there it is, the undisciplined, naughty, angry, wild side that we just don't understand and somehow may admire from a distance when we see those things in others.
What do we do with it? What is the purpose of having that inside and never willing to let it out in a way that makes us better, more interesting of a person than what we show others?
See we all show the people around us what we want them to see and know about ourselves, it is the ones that get really close that get to see the almost true self you are. You notice I said almost the true self because we all hold back a portion that no one will ever know about. We all keep a bit, the raw, untamed, the personal wars we have with ourselves that we never share with anyone except within our own personal thoughts where no one will ever hear or see.
It is that part that I think about, it is part of me, who I am, what do I do with it? What can I or we do with it? Not go there at all, or go there fully? I think both are a wrong solution, extremes are never good. So my thoughts are to find a way not to ignore it but to understand it so that we can become a more fully rounded person instead of a one sided individual that becomes a type of black and white, known and predictable in their ways with no interesting sides to them.
We have the ability to adapt to our environment, our situations in a way that makes us very unique. The one thing that would stifle that is fear, fear of change, fear of the unknown, fear of lack of understanding of ourselves. This will put us at a place of frozeness. The only way we can move into new territory is to try to step where we have not gone before, that place I would like to say is within. Find the answers to what lays ahead by looking inside to see what you need to do to handle the different environment you find yourselves in. You may be surprised to see some answers you wouldn't have seen if you didn't try and act upon the one thing you have kept buried. A change has to come to get different results than what you have. Doing the same thing all the time and expecting a different outcome is considered insanity. So what do you have to loose, try something different with a bit of control on your side........

Searching for the answers......